Journal Entry - absurdity/

I simply try to endure the Monday mornings which are perhaps the most difficult part of the week. The weekend that just ended and the new Monday morning that started which prompts me to go work or do some productive activity. It is the anxious few hours of the day that makes me take actions but yet apply this layer of calm and apathetic demeanour onto myself. I pretend to not care about things such as money, work, career, livelihood, happiness and so on. I pretend to live as if I'm dead. I matter nothing to nobody yet I eat, excrete and enjoy sensual pleasures like any other animal.